♥ That lady

just another tuesday

2012-02-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

Valentine's, just another Tuesday.
Saw it all over FaceBook, Twitter and 9GAG. I think it's only self-comfort for those that doesn't have anyone to celebrate with. 'cause....vday is special. Actually I got no idea how special vday is, as I got zero experience in celebrating vday =( Kinda sad, but true. 19 (No la, actually 18 years only) years of my life, never have I celebrated vday with that someone special. When it comes to receiving gifts....i forgot how many i've received, but definitely can be counted by using 1 palm of mine. Lulz.

Anyway, accompanied Eveline to get vday present for her bf just now. Actually it's me wanting to go great wall city to change clothes at mark and spencer but ended up no stock so gotta go other outlet =_= anyway, another sinful dinner tonight. (Picture above) While Eveline had some minced pork noodles. Intended to walk home again from great wall city, but failed 'cause i lead the wrong way to tiong bahru's mrt so end up using bus back home. So picture below me is enjoying my meal. /sadface. too sinful. Gotta go jogging tmr morning to burn off some calories.

Saw lots of lots bouquet of roses at great wall city just now! There's pink, yellow, purple, blue, white and the usual colour, red! Saw this huge bouquet of roses with pink and red roses in it with some other kind of flower and I really rove it!! lol! Wanted to take a picture of it but people keep blocking me! =( WHAI. Ok la anyway, seeing people receiving bouquet of flowers but I no haz make me sadz. =( but it's okay. I shall just wait. Wait til that day come. /daydream /foreveralone

Fran and I at Changi Airport wasting our time away! Don't know why my hair's kinda wavy inside. :/
Hmmm, so yeah. Gotta bath now then skype with friend =D to all the lovey dovey couples out there, happy vday =) to all the single men and ladies, s'okay! God is still busy writing your love story that's why you're still single. Lulz. Good bye! =)

Blessed! :)

2012-02-09T01:01:00.002+08:00

Lol Hi. One big ass photo of yours truly and yes, its taken by DSLR that's why there's no rice grains, hence better in quality, hence I look prettier. Okayjk maybe i look prettier only with the mascara on. Lolol.

Anyways, I typed a super duper post about....well. How shitty life gets when there's no trust between no matter who it is. Your mom, your dad, your brother, your sister, your friend, your spouse and so. While typing that long ass post, a friend whatsapp-d me and asked me to check Fb. So I got distracted from the long ass post, and go on Fb trololol-ing so hard that my tummy aches. That's how i abandon the long ass post for approximately thirty minutes. Oh, and I used my phone to type that shitty long ass post fyi :)

Then i decided to continue that post with my laptop so i decided to on me laptop. Then i got a chat from skype! that's when I got distracted from the shitty long ass post for an hour. laughed so hard while chatting on skype. reminiscing over old times when we were young, etc! Then I remembered that I've got class later at 830, and afraid that I might got difficulties waking up at 7 to get ready. So I bid goodbye, and that shitty long ass post appeared in my mind. But I was so happy and all, so i decided to get a new post, leaving that as a draft.

I am blessed with so much laughters given by God, that he won't even let me frown for a sec. How much more awesome can He be? :)

So anyways, here comes to end of this post. just some crap post that maybe some of you might find interesting. ohorhor :D thanks for reading. seriously gotta stop typing and get ready for bed if i wanna attend class later. (but I can actually not go as it's for group2, but i missed the class for group1 so might as well just attend.)(But people say it's boring!)(Ok whatever. Let's just see if i can get up at 7-730am or not)

Okay, just another vain pic to blind y'all. Okaaaiii. Gnight!

人。

2012-02-04T14:23:00.001+08:00

人，在只有一点点的时候，会想拥有更多；得到更多后，又期望还能再多些。但是，当一切都化为乌有，才意识到，最初的那一点点就已经足够了。
人生的选择有很多，结局是人为还是天意？

29 of 366

2012-01-29T09:16:00.001+08:00

Been lacking of sleep recently as I slept at 3/4am and woke up at 9am almost everyday. I seriously don't know how I managed to stay awake for thirty plus hours with only a cup of coffee last year during term two's finals.

Apparently, it's the seventh day of cny and most of ze friends are flying back to kl and so. While I'm heading back to Singapore on Wednesday. Seriously don't feel like going back Singapore though kuching is boring as ever. But Kuching is home. Where I spend my childhood at, where I grew up for the past eighteen years.

Though I feel down about leaving in few days time, but there's this urge of not wanting to come back for term break during march. As I'll be seeing my family again during April, so it doesn't really matter. As friends, never mind. I'll let 'em all miss me a while as I come back too often and they no longer miss me. So this is the time where they should start to miss me more. Lol. I'm still thinking of where to go during term break though. A friend asked me to visit langkawi, another said Penang. But I feel like going kl again 'cause There's more friends there and I can go look for them. Or maybe I'll just go batam with Eveline and the rest.

It's been a great cny, and I'm kind of guilty for spending more time with friends than family. Mmhmmm. I feel like I neglect my family all the time when it comes to situation like this. Though mommy say its okay, but I still feel bad about it.

Distance. 469.

2012-01-24T02:22:00.001+08:00

That kinda shit feeling that you feel so hurt and feel like crying out loud in the middle of the night. Yes I'm going through that now. It's like you're so fucking upset that nothing could cheer you up. Not even a box of sunnyhill pandan flavored ice cream. It's like you feel there's tears in your eyes but nothing is rolling down on your cheeks.

Sometimes you just feel fucking unappreciated. Especially when you get that feeling from loved ones. Sometimes you just feel that you're not good enough and wonder why. Sometimes you don't feel like arguing over small matter but you just do, 'cause you don't wanna surrender. Being stubborn is sometimes bad.

Time like this is seriously when I'm so fucking upset and got no one to rant to. There is. Friends. But I don't know who. Family. They're always there, but i just dont feel like telling them.

PMS, you suck for making me emotionally unstable.

2012-01-15T17:17:00.001+08:00

I'm coming home, coming home.
Tell the world that I'm coming home
Let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday.
I know my kingdom awaits.
And they've forgiven my mistakes.
I'm coming home, coming home.
Tell the world that in coming home.

:)

2012-01-13T13:58:00.001+08:00

Woke up with a swollen eye, I don't know why. It's Friday the thirteenth and I got a feeling that today's not gonna be a good day. Most of the time when my eyes are swollen, the day turns out to be bad, real bad.

Woke up with a weird dream. Dreamt that I was jailed for ruining someone's wedding. Dafug? Can't remember whose wedding it was, but I saw you inside. I can't accept the fact the I was jailed and was emotionally broken . Then you came to visit, giving me comfort. Saying you'll be there for me no matter what. Saying you'll be waiting for me, saying that you don't mind if I'm a prisoner. It's a weird dream indeed. I waited til the days in jail are over. Was so anxious to get out. After long wait, I'm finally free. Went to look for you, you changed your address. Couldn't get through you as you changed your contact number as well. Then I saw you at some coffee shop opposite the Eiffel tower (totally don't know why I'm there) enjoying french loaf, coffee, or tea perhaps with my best friend, cuddling a baby girl in her hand. I walked over, both of you were shocked. You pulled me away. Slapped me on the face. Saying that you no longer love me anymore as you mind that i was jailed and so. Asking me leave you and her alone, and the baby girl with the name Ariel. I cried. And I jump off from Eiffel tower, and died.

Basically it's a weird dream, and there's tears when I woke up. It's the second time I woke up with tears this year. Blergh. Is this a sign? Saying that 2012 gonna be a bad year for me? Mmmhmmm...

Call me vain you may.

2012-01-09T03:04:00.001+08:00

Some people just gotta learn to be more appreciative! Like seriously dude! What's your problem? The world don't revolve around you lah for the love of God! It is so hard to say please and thank you? Is it that hard to show that you're grateful/thankful? Like duhhhzzzzz. You're not only being unappreciative but also acting like a bitchz. Just by seeing your face piss me off. Please mind your own business and don't go asking around about it. Zzzz. Note to self : don't go offering around unless asked by them.

Ohaiii some rant above which I wanted to post quite some time ago but didnt finish the post so I decided to post it out today. Feeling so much better after typing it out in words!

Anyway, how was y'all's weekend? Fun, awesome I assume? I've been living the life at the best for the past few days. Like trying different fast food in just four days. Mcd, KFC, mos burger, subway! What's next? Burger king, Carl's jr, marrybrown? Mmhmmm. And yeah. Of cz I gained not less weight too T_T resolution #1 failed.

And did shopping too! I'm like so dry now as I spent quite a lot these few days! Was in h&m for like 3 hours? I know. Damn long right-.- even my cousin can't stand me and went to catch a movie instead. Well, that's why I don't like it when people follow me to go shopping. Lol. Because I'm seriously slow, and always in huge dilemma which to buy! Like in h&m I was wondering to get the jeans or not for like half and hour -.- ya, so that's it.

Went cotton on, forever 21, esprit, zara etc. Went topshop but there's nothing that caught my eyes beside the knickers. Lol!

So anyways, I'm almost done with my cny shopping. Which means I'm almost broke. Dafug. Sucks feeling broke. It's like you gotta think twice what to buy and what not to. Yeah. I bet most of you feel so too.

Nerdified.

new year resolution?!

2012-01-06T04:19:00.002+08:00

Wow, okay. this is my first post of 2012, which is also finally the first post posted from my laptop instead of my phone. And also a big head innocent looking photo of me since the ones i uploaded via mobile always like damn small! Hehe *tougue out* (ignore the rice grains all over the photo cox its taken with iphone4's front camera thats why so blur =_= will use dslr next time with higher mgp!) anyways, its 4am now, and literally I'm still widely awake (obviously) and I don't know why I don't feel like sleepy at all. Maybe because I'm feeling stress =_= kinda. Not anymore. Teehee. Well you see. That's just me. I feel stress for an hour or two, and happy after that though I'm not done with my lab report yet which due date is...*jeng* todayz. I'm so awesome right? Maybe that's one of the reason why I can't sleep yet. Lulz.

Anyways, new year, new resolution! So yah!! Gonna post some new year resolution here and hopefully, HOPEFULLY! I'll complete at least half of it! #challengeaccepted.jpg!

LOSE WEIGHT. blergh, I know this is on my new year resolution list EVERY single year. yeah sad case. Well hopefully i'll lose weight at least 1kilogram. Which is better than nothing right? #closeenough.jpg
STUDY REAL HARD. ok and yes, this is on the list every year too. lol. seriously fail. how can resolution repeat itself every year one? I don't know also. Well, hopefully that something hits on my head and make me real smart after that.
LOVE MYSELF MORE. hmmm. i should really how to love myself more than I love my friends la. Sometimes i think i take friendship too seriously that i put in more effort to maintain the friendship lo. #sien. and rather spend more money on f&f instead of myself. *facepalm* seriously gotta change. Must be more ngiau ci a bit. A friend of mine said "the most ngiau ci person is the richest!" hopefully I'll be so goddamn rich by the end of this year. lulllzzzz.
BE MORE FEMININE. be more feminine as in wear more dresses, puts on light make up, wear heels, talk more softly! well, dunno can or not la. But hopefully can change the "da la pa"-ness in me. and! aiya, dress up more properly lahh.
MAKE MORE FRIENDS. situation like "oh! I know who she is. she is my classmate but we never talk" doesnt count as having more friends =_= must talk to them, joke with them like how i joke with mah awesome kuching friends! at least make friends with, minimum 30 people this year la k!
GET RID OF BAD HABITS. bad habits like doing everything last minute-ly! since i dunno when, i get things done last minute-ly instead of getting it done few days before the due date. =____= but hor. i think this bad habit also not bad lo. at least got motivation at the eleventh hour and chiong whole night and can get things done perfectly lo. thats me la. if you early early call me get assignments done for sure result not so good one. simisaiiiii. i also dunno.
EXERCISE REGULARLY. Must at least go jogging minimum twice a week! not because of lose weight, because I wantz healthy body tooo. Don't wanna die young, don't want people to bury me at satin lo okie. And go swimming once a weeeeeek. At least la. And sign up for yoga/pilates class. And sign up for gym. Walaoehh. It's all about the money money money! No money no talkzzz. Beside go jogging. Oh and take the stairs instead of using ze elevator! Aiyoyooooo.
SAVE MONEY. Must spend money more wisely and get meself a branded bag this year end! no relying on parents to give it to me. though they gave me allowance = its their money, use it to buy = they buy for me, but this is different leh. Use my own savings one :)
WHATSAPP. Must whatsapp f&f more often. Must not wait til they find me. Especially me brothaaa. he sent a meme pict to me the other day saying "Y U NO WHATSAPP DARYL?!" harhar, quite funny lo.
POSTCARD/LETTERS. i think sending postcards/letters to friends quite interesting one lo. Sent a postcard to Desmond last month and I feel so stoked even I'm not the one receiving it! Plus can bond friendship also. #obamarageface.jpg
TAKE PHOTOS. Everyday must camwhore a while. from page 1 of 366 to page 366 of 366! I want see how much I've changed throughout the whole year! But few days ago din't camwhore also =_= nvms, start from today. page 6 of 366. :)
BE MORE ORGANIZED. must learn to be more organized. cannot luan qi ba zao le.
LEARN HOW TO COOK/BAKE. besides cooking maggie mee and the instant roti prata. Must learn how to cook a bit liaw. nineteen years old already, but the only food i can cook is maggie mee =_= and instant roti prata. yums. itz ze bez i tell youhz. :) scared no people want if can't cook lers. thats why :'(
BE MORE INDEPENDENT. must be more independent than i am during 2011. when go shopping must no whatsapp mummy ask her is it nice or not. must learn to believe my own yan guang! and must not rely on people on whatever shitzzz. can la, but not always.
LEARN TO RESIST FOOD. this one seriously if can hor, then i'll lose at least 1kg for sure =_= one thing about me, i wont resist food! zzzz dunno why also. eat like pig. sleep like pig. end up become pig. haih.
JOIN REDCROSS. 've been wanting to join charity associations since like forever but always no idea where to go, plus my mom don't allow at first cox she say do charity bo hua =_= but i kinda finally like persuaded her to let me join so *yay* #successfulkid.jpg can join liaws. need go find where to join. hmm
VACATION. if possible go somewhere overseas! outta malaysia, outta singapore! hmm, batam/brunei considered or not? See first la. If just go batam then considered lu! Still got what choice.
COUSINS. Love me cousins and gather with cousins more! Bonding between us is very much needed! Went johor on NYE with cousins and we had our heart to heart talk. and i feel very blessed among my cousins. #thankgodforevereverything
FAMILY. must call mummy via tango at least once a week! but sometimes i very scared want talk to her on phone because we can go for hours. =_= once we talked for almost 3 hours. whatsapp daddy at least once a day/week. whatsapp ze older generations during special occasions!
*edit* BLOGGER/TWITTER LAYOUT. must change layout for blog and twitter by this year! always wanna change but end up gave up cox too lazy -_- (added on 2012-01-06 04.39AM)

hm ok la, thats it i guess. cox i need to get my lab report done and i can't think of any resolution liaw. i'll add in if i think of any. target : must get at least 10 resolution done by the end of the year!!

2011-12-30T14:55:00.001+08:00

It's NYE tomorrow! Omg that's fast. And the sad thing is! I've not done anything Great this year :( damn. My biggest dream is........*drumrolls* lose weight. I've been saying this since like forever but this dream never seem to come true. Probably it's because I'm so dayum lazy to workout and I absolutely double confirm love food.

As I said before. My love for food is infinite. Lulz, whenever I'm down, as long as food is served to me, my mood turns three hundred and sixty degree around. Naoz, TELL ME HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT?! Few months ago I wrote this 'Ways to lose weight' post hoping that maybe, JUST MAYBE I'll lose weight. But. Failed. FOODS, Y U TURN INTO FATS IN MAH BODY.

Most of my friends are encouraging me to lose weight because they told me that I got a pretty face, so if I lose weight I would be slightly closer to perfect already. Lulz, not to be thicked face but seriously, I got that from a lot of people! Few months ago a stranger at orchard came across me and asked 'have you even tried losing weight? You would look gorgeous if you do' and he's a Caucasian. So f*cking happy you knowz! Hahaha who won't be right? And another time a guy at Chinatown told me that I got a pretty face just my nose isn't that perfect. Hmm, mmkay. I'll take that as a compliment as well.

Of cz when there's encouragement, there's also discouragement -.- some say that I'm okay just the way I am and losing weight or not doesn't matter as long as I'm being me. But seriously. Do you know how does it feels like to be a little bigger than your friends? It's like your friend sized XS and you're sized XL. It doesn't feel good walking with them. They get all the attention while you don't. Sad isn't it? And when it comes to shopping. It's impossible to look good in everything if you're slightly bigger. And sometimes you can't even find the right size for yourself.

You know, my biggest fear is being unaccepted in this materialistic/realistic world because of my body size. But guess I'm wrong. Har har. Oh and being forever alone -.- forever alone as in the bgr kind of forever alone. You know. Seeing friends with their boyfriend/girlfriend sometimes makes me jealous. Almost everyone of my friends are taken-.- can I just say that I'm the only one that's single among my Singapore friends? Lol. Sadness ttm.

Anyway, I've been working out recently! Yay nay? I'm like so motivated to go jogging ever since mom got me a new sport shoe. Har har. I've always wanted to go jogging but my four years old sport shoe decided to stop me from jogging and died. Lulz. And I went swimming too! Amazing no? Even I'm amused with what I've done. Hopefully I'll able to lose much weight so I can fit in beautiful dresses! And be more confident with myself before Chinese new year comes. But I see no future for that so hopefully this 'future' will be real during 2013's cny.

Resolution #1 for 2012 : lose weight!!! (forever the same)

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T01:36:00.001+08:00

Just feel that I need to post this before going to bed!

Merry Christmas bloggers/readers! :D

Love y'all out there

Xxx

Merry Christmas Eve :D

2011-12-24T11:23:00.001+08:00

Have a merry merry Christmas everyone! Cherish the times with your loved one especially with your family. 'cause time ain't waiting for us and practically we grow up too faz 😔 friends, sometime you just don't know who's truthful too you. It's like, they're your friend. But they can also be your enemy at the same time. Ok la, maybe not enemy. But yah, as we grow up we start to have this worry that is our friends truthful to us? Do they like me? Or they just put on an act just to make me happy?

Family, no matter what they're gonna be by your side eve when the whole world doesn't accept you. They gonna give you 140 support no matter if you're a failure or a success.

Ohana means family. Family means no one gets left behind, or forgotten.

quoted from Lilo and Stitch.

Friends, I have many of them. But seriously, how many would be there for me when I need help? How many would stand by me when my skies are dark? Not to say that I don't love my friends, I do, a lot. It's just that sometimes I feel like I'm just a..... I don't know? Replacement? Backup plan? 😔😔😔 really don't like this kinda feeling.

Well, friends by choice, family by blood. Sometimes we just gotta decide which friends worth more and which doesn't. Family, no matter what nothing can change the blood that runs inside us.

Anyways it's Christmas eve! Shouldn't think that much. Go out the celebrate y'all!

Have a jolly-o merry Christmas! :)

*ps: give your parents/siblings a big hug and tell them you love them! Be blessed with what you have :)

2011-12-16T17:40:00.001+08:00

Less than 7 hours to 18 years old! Yayyers :)

Made a new friend in class today. She actually talked to me first instead of me starting the conversation! :D which means I don't look scary AT ALL. And she said that I look so Singaporean-ish. That's for sure lah because Singapore used to be part of Malaysia what! Of cz both nationality look/sound alike loh! Hahahaha #singlish

Anyway, her name's Carmen and she's 20 year old girl/woman(?) which look like a eighteen year old girl like me! But I look older la what people say. Wtf *imposibruuuuu face*

Currently blogging inside biotech's class because my class ended 135 minutes earlier. So Royce Austin Moon and I decided to visit Esther and the rest. But ended up joining them in class. (super boring one loh!)

Potluck party later and MIGHT go clubbing with the gang tonight! Somebody wake me up tomorrow morning please? Thanks.

Ran out of I inspiration already plus my phone's batt left 42%! Screw you iPhone battery. You suck so bad!

Babaii!

2011-12-10T17:06:00.001+08:00

Saw this girl sitting beside me typing a rather lengthy post, assuming that she's blogging, so I decided to post an entry too.

I'm now enjoying a 45 minutes bus ride to the destination I wanna go. Yea forty five. Usually I'll scroll down news feed of social networks to kill time but today, I decided to blog because there's this sudden urge of wanting to blog. Hm.

It's the second week of class already and to be frank, the only friends I have in class are the ones I made during foundation. Everyone in class seems arrogant. Or maybe it's just me. Maybe it's because I don't anyhow socialize and I find it hard to start the conversation first with strangers. Many might think that I'm talkative, but that's only when I know you. Or else I'd be as quiet as a...mouse? Rabbit sounds cuter.

Eveline and Winni, my Foundations girlfriends are no longer my classmate as they choose to go for biotechnology instead of biomedical. I no longer have girlfriends to girls talk with. Moon, awkward conversation between us k dunno why.

Sometimes I feel like I'm #foreveralone.
I'll continue why I feel so when inspiration comes next time because I'm reaching the destination I wanted to go in probably less than 2 minutes.

Goodbye.

Special

2011-12-06T02:23:00.001+08:00

Special.
What is special? How special is special? Where is this 'special'? Why is Special special?

Google tells me that special As an adjective, it is something better, greater or otherwise different from the usuals. For an example, 'a special effort'.
On the other hand, as a noun, special is a thing such as an event, product or broadcast that is designed or organized for a particular event or purpose differently.
Thus, synonyms of special are particular, peculiar, special or extraordinary. Personally, I like the word extraordinary more than the other fews.

So what really is special?
My point of view, special is a word that is often used to describe something that is one of a kind.
Something like a hug, or a sunset, or something extraordinary, or a kind of feeling towards your acquaintance. Or maybe special is a person who spread love with a smile or kind of gesture.
Special describes people who act from the heart and keep in mind the hearts of others.
Special applies to something that is admired and precious. Which can never be replaced.
Hence, special is the word that best describes you and I.

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Oh why hello there. It's been almost three months since my last post and I'm happy that *probably* I still have constant readers. :> thankyous much love gnight! <3

2011-09-14T01:24:00.001+08:00

Life don't always go how you expect it to be. Like a roller coaster, there's ups and downs in life which is unavoidable. It's like a straight road. there's no turning back when you left something behind; there's no stopping in the middle of the road when there's obstacles in front.

Everything happen for a reason, thus no one is to be blamed. God never promise us a good life on earth but He gave the assurance that there will always be a rainbow after the rain. (-:

Life's a bitch. Deal with it.

Cheers.

好的事情

2011-09-11T23:31:00.002+08:00

休息是为了走更长的路
你就是我的旅途
都是因为你我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最后
但我遗失了地图
谁给谁束缚谁比谁辛苦
爱到深处才会领悟
好的事情最后虽然结束
感动十分就有十分满足
谢谢你是你陪我走过那些路
痛是以后无法再给你幸福
好的事情也许能够重复
感动时分就算纷纷模糊
不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最后
但我遗失了地图
谁给谁束缚谁比谁辛苦
爱到深处才会领悟
好的事情最后虽然结束
感动十分就有十分满足
谢谢你是你陪我走过那些路
痛是以后无法再给你幸福
好的事情也许能够重复
感动时分就算纷纷模糊
不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福
不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福

perfect two.

2011-08-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

Dear heart, please stop aching. Please stop regretting for what you've done.

Dear mouth, please stop eating. You ain't helping me no where.

Dear brain, please do not procrastinate. Focus, studies.

Dear body, please stop being so lazy. Workout!

#nowlistening

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain
And I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero
And I can be your sidekick
You can be the tear That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or u can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as were together

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Our Solemn Hour.

2011-08-24T23:02:00.004+08:00

Are they themselves to blame, the misery, the pain?

Didn't we let go, allowed it, let it grow?

If we can't restrain the beast which dwells inside,

it will find it's way somehow, somewhere in time.

Will we remember all of the suffering,

Cause if we fail it will be in vain.

#nowlistening

Bye july.

2011-08-01T03:33:00.002+08:00

Hello august,
Didn't expect to see you so soon.

First day of August,
Means another 1 month to finals.
Another 30 days to Malaysia's independence day.
Another 8 days to singapore's independence days.
Another 22 days to Mommy's birthday.
Another 18 days to study break.

Dear August..please be nice.

Sincerely,
July.

physiology is such a pain.

2011-07-19T21:34:00.007+08:00

Physiology is such a pain in the arse )-: it is depressing thinking that there's exam every week, and due dates every week too. literally twenty four hours a day isn't enough for me. well, maybe it is enough if i don't go on facebook, twitter, tumblr, blogshops. and minus the extra time i used to nap, which Im suppose to use it wisely to study/get assignment done.

I love food. My love for food is unconditional, and infinite. Whenever there's food, I'll be happy (-: that's why I can't freaking lose weight. Ah wells. I'm happy just the way I am. (-:

So tired, I need time to sleep.

letter to awesome pig;)

2011-07-13T11:30:00.002+08:00

생일축하합니다, ung! I love you more than anyone else and You know it. Nyahaha.
Anyway, thanks for being such an awesome friend, ever since form two!
It's been five awesome years knowing you. ah, time do flies ey?

During form two, I remember you being assistant monitor while Ryan's the class monitor and you had to endure him all the time as he is as lazy as a sloth, and NEVER get the attendance and kawal ponteng thingy done. I remember playing rock paper scissors til our hand looks like pork's leg. Do you remember? x) And we keep calling tzer wen as Pluto =P and and, had a HUGE argument with Eileen and you threw her money away! Woah o_o oh, and remember the time when Lyn's in a relationship with Shelby, we bet how long they gonna be together and so. Nyahaha, and some other stuff that I shouldn't post it here. P&C ;)

Form three. Drama drama. Ryan liking Lyn and all those bullshits remember? OH! AND REMEMBER JUDE? :D Hehe. Form three we were best friends forever, until PMR ends. When you said you wanna unfriend 'cause Lyn and I gossip about Amanda and you felt guilty. In case you don't know, I cried =( I cried the whole night, hoping that we'll be besties forevaaaXxz again, but for that whole holiday you never look for me. I wanted to text you, but something told me not to. ANIWAYS, form three was one dope year minus the unfriend part. Remeber Isaac and Isaiah used their electrical something-mac-gingy pen to electric shock us? Not to forget Lyn's party though. We had so much fun playing water balloons, helping each other to wash hair, used hair dryer to dry up our inner wears, AND MENSIASOIKAN OURSELVES IN FRONT OF A "HOTTIE"? Lol! I couldn't remember what's the "hottie"'s name though. Ah wells. We went Mr Lee's seminar together, and walked to hock lee just for lunch 'cause we can't drive back then X( talking bout Mr Lee's seminar, do you remember prank calling another hottie during the seminar? We used Mr Lee's son to get his number and we called him like mad. Sort of stupid & siasoi, but it's fun thinking back that we had such awesome experience. Lolol. OH, and you were my jian gan ma back then. Remember remember?? =P

Form four. It was dope as well. We, classmate. Which is when we befriended again, and Lenny and Yhui joined us =P Where the story of siaw cha boS start. Nyehehe. Oh not to forget yee yen ey? =P I remember I lost my newly bought phone at hock lee's arcade and WENT MAD CRAZY SCREAMING SHOUTING AROUND THERE. Oh mai god. Seriously mensiasoikan myself -_- your 17th birthday was celebrated at D11 I remember ;) You sat next to the gas tank. Nyahaha, and FISHBALL DAMN BIG OHHHH!! ;) and I so blur sotong I forgot to bring your cake along. :S so we ate your birthday cake at school. Using plastic spoons, and ate like cavewomans/cavemans. My 16th birthday at Bernard's condo. Was awesome as well =)

Form five. Ah, where all the fun continues with the help of five science six. Ryan as our classmate, Kelvin started to talk with us, Chun Kian don't emo in class anymore. Had great laughs at school EVERYDAY. We got teased by the guys ; that's how friendship bonds isn't it? Like how you, yhui, Lenny and I remain as best friends until now =) and our thank you card to all the teachers! I had tonnes of fun doing that!!!=)

Two zero double one, where keeping in touch became a major problem. Distance. Lenny's at KL, I'm at Singapore. We don't talk to each other often anymore=( our Chin Pok mode don't get turned on everyday! But, I have faith that our friendship will still go on for yearS. ;)

Anyway, I seriously gotta get my assignment done #lol.

Let you recall back some crazy moments with the help of photos!

Form two, Amanda's house and my samsung phone!!

Form three, outside MBKS auditorium. ;)

Form four, my 16th birthday =)

Form five, after my est paper ends. Woohooo ahLianSxzsx ^____^
2011, days before I leave Kuching =(

May 2011, where I went back Kuching for study break=)

I seriously gotta go. It's 1143pm already T__T

anyway, I hope you're reading this, Chuo Ung Ung.

A year older a year wiser. A year wiser, a year prettier. A year prettier, the faster you get a bf =P

Seriously looking forward who's gonna be your boyfriend though. Nyahaha, I bet Yhui's looking forward to it as well. Don't forget to intro to us kay! And please, drive me out when Im back Kuching. Your driving license shouldn't be sprouting mushrooms/spores in your wallet k! You paid for it, you use it!

Happy nineteenth birthday! Love you very very much. Friends for life=)

Sincerely,

Anissa (-:

oh p/s, I typed this on 12th July 2011, 11.02pm ;) I scheduled it to post at 13th July 2011, 11.30am. Hahaha, #lame! Babai!

jars of heart.

2011-07-08T03:00:00.005+08:00

its 3am. Still widely awake. Worried bout bioinformatic exam later.

've been reading through lecture notes.

Kind of lost somewhere.

Sighs.

#life!

Just because i laugh a lot, doesnt mean my life is easy.

just because i have a smile on my face every day, doesnt mean that something isnt bothering me.

its just that i choose to move on with the negative thoughts in my life, and keep my head & hopes up high, instead of dwelling on the past.

#nowplaying jars of heart =)

Mister awesome

2011-07-06T22:46:00.004+08:00

This awesome friend of mine that I've forgotten to include his skype chat during last post =)
Anyway, he gets a solo promo(sounds so tumblr, lol). He should be proud of it. ;)

nerd mode on, kthxbaiiiiii.

JULY!

2011-07-04T23:00:00.026+08:00

Somtimes I thank God for living in the 21st century. Even though there's distance between friends back home, but internet don't make it feel that way. We got skype, facebook, twitter and all those shits. Though we can only see each other through webcam, but that's good enough already don't you think so? :)

Sometimes it's small joy talking with mommy on phone =) 'cause I got no one to rant stuff to here. I don't know who to talk to. It's just, nobody. Although there's aunties here, but mommy, is forever mommy. She knows me well. I can just talk to her literally about everything. Though we don't talk on phone everyday, but every time we talked on phone, there's endless stories I would wanna tell her. Ugh, curse assignments and exams. Sometimes i felt guilty. Somehow somewhere..

FaceTime. Ugh, tried calling Lenny with FaceTime last week for n times but I don't know what's wrong with it so ended up just whatsapp. Well, this is what I meant about distance. You can't anyhow call your friends whenever you want. Or else the phone bill gonna rape wallet == ah wells. At least there's whatsapp ey? =) and skype. (ignore the fact that lenny seldom on skype :S)

Been reading back old conversation lately. Don't ask me why, 'cause I got no idea. I enjoy reading back old conversations though. It made me laugh =) Some literally made my day. But some kinda made me..um sad? I don't know.

School been fine. FUBDO 1116A is the noisiest class of all batch. We got complained by all the six lecturers, said Doctor Lissy. Lol. Today the head of school came in our class and told us that we need to be more discipline and stuff. Most of my classmates hate physics and maths lecturer. But! It turns out that physics and maths has the most satisfying result of all, as no one, I repeat, NO ONE failed both subjects. I can't wait to get my result within this week! Though, I'm a little bit worried :3 Anyway, I like my college class =) We all get along well though we're all from different country. =)

Me. Ahaha, as pretty as ever :p loljk. Its july. Hm. Half year gone and I feel that I hadn't archive anything great, grand, huge, awesome yet. Must make use of time to make 2011 a memorable one =) Well, time do flies. I've been studying in Singapore for 3 months already. Starting 4th month. That's fast ey? Mmmhmm.

So, I kinda sorta miss home. Miss everyone there. Miss my blanket *loves. And most of all, miss daddy mommy daryl & tina!

Random photos taken instagram =) Loving that app!

Mmkay, its 1258am already. Spent 1 hour 58 minutes uploading pictures, arranging pictures, thinking of what to type and get inspired from pictures uploaded and ta-dah post it. So, I shall either head to bed now or continuing my assignment. Prolly to bed. But ngeh, last pict. The hardworking side of me ;) Nanite!

TGFE!

2011-06-28T00:23:00.005+08:00

I'm so blessed with people around me.

Thank God for everything.

For wonderful parents whom loved me so much they made everything that seems to be impossible to be possible.

For the best grandparents whom cared so much for me. Especially my mama! She's the best! One in a trillion.

For annoying but lovely siblings. Siblings by blood, friends by choice =)

For awesome friends. Friends like mine are worth being friends with.

And for being me! I is awesome, very. :P

Have faith, always. :)

Blur sotong?

2011-06-26T18:04:00.003+08:00

#omglolwtf! Know what? I'm a blur sotong as I just threw my new purple phone cover into the dumpster! I can't get it back anymore as it's at the basement with other rubbish threw by neighbors and all. My oh my Anissa Sia! WHAI ARE YOU SO VERY THE CARELESSS?! Okay chill chill. It's only 10 dollars? (heartache!!!!!) And luckily it's not my cookie monster cover! Phewwww. At least I still got the hot pink bumper! But i like the purple cover more!!!!=( Aw wells, chill ssa chill. Luckily you did not threw your phone in the dumpster! YEAH OK. Luckily I DIDNT. Or else I'll be crying like a baby, screaming like some mentally ill-d lady! Yeah ok I feel somehow better nao. But till heartache ler! ~~pukimak!~~ =(

Mm, I'm currently sick! Like really sick. Maybe that's why I'm so blur I threw my new cover away-____- Yesterday night i sneeze A LOT of times and a little sore throat, and feeling dizzy so I slept around 12am. Early right? :/ and this morning I woke up with cough, running nose and throat super sore! I think it's because I walked under the rain recently as it's raining every morning, framing me to walk under it to bus stop then to school. Ugh, this is why I hate Singapore.

Anyway, just got back from Vivo city and sentosa. Had caramel crisp (which worsen my sore throat) and gong cha's pearl mlik tea (I requested for 30% of sugar level ok! =P ) Oh and bought a new tshirt from Universal Studio's souvenirs store. My aunt got hundreds of RWS voucher and she keep giving it to me. And it can only be used in the souvenir stores. Nothing more. And the only thing to buy at the stores are tshirts. Plush toys are sort of unglam so I didn't get it. And I got 5 USS tshirts already. YES SHE GOT THAT MUCH OF VOUCHER. :/ Anyone wants it? Buy from me kay! =P 20 dollars for 25 dollars voucher! Worth it leh. Haha!

So Imma go bath nao and sleep. I'm so tired ZzzzzZzzzzZzZz

take care readers! Love you very much xoxo

Its funny how a single post can make A LOT of people think that I'm mentioning them, but actually not. Haha! #humorous :P

swings

2011-06-24T23:02:00.009+08:00

Forget : things that people have said to and about you.

Focus : on the people who truly love and care for you.

Carry : on with what you enjoy doing and do it with the extra knowledge that you and your heart are good.

#tumblr

My hope is all gone. Even though I believe the fact that it’s still not over, the hope is gone. What can I say? I can’t even think normally. I’ve a lot of mixed feelings. I feel hurt. I feel lost. I feel confused. I feel like it’s not over. I feel like there’s no need for hoping. I feel scared. I feel weird. I'm worried. My insecurities acting up.
Sometimes, just sometimes. On moments when I feel so terrible as this, I wish to go somewhere where nobody knows me. I feel like going somewhere where my mind can be in peace, without getting interrupted.

Sometimes, just sometimes. I feel that I'm not good enough. I know where I stand, I know I'm not the prettiest, the skinniest, the smartest and so. Sometimes I'm just happy the way I am, but sometimes I felt hopeless.

Right, nobody is perfect. Stop complaining. Accepting the fact that it's that way.

Oh hello. There are the tears.

losing weight!

2011-06-22T17:23:00.003+08:00

Ello people! You’re lucky if you’re in the mood to lose weight nao, ‘cause I’ve just done some research on losing weight EASILY. Haha! Yes, I’m a very lazy person so I want everything be done easily. But the losing weight plan not gonna make you lose A LOT of weight la. Just a little bit, so working out at gym and so is still needed okay! Ok.

First of all! Sleeping helps in losing weight. Yes, believe it or not! SLEEPING DO HELP IN LOSING WEIGHT. No wonder all the sleepy heads out there are so skinny! Damn If I knew I would’ve slept like pig everyday! Anyway, lemme explain whai sleeping helps in losing weight k? Mmmhmm. An average human needs at least 8 hours of sleep. Studies show that sleeping less than 8 hours during night time boost the level of ghrelin in our body. Ghrelin is a hormone that makes us feel hungry, stimulates our appetite!! While if we get minimum 8 hours of sleep during night time, it boost another hormone called leptin, which makes us feel full. So people! PLEASE GET EIGHT HOURS OF SLEEP AT NIGHT OK? I’m gonna make it as a habit starting from nao =)

I’ve heard people saying that drinking water helps in losing weight But I never put that in mind, ‘cause I think that it’s not true. Welll, nao I believe that drinking water helps in losing weight. Know why? It’s because sometimes our body acts stupidly as its difficult for it to differentiate hunger and thirst. If we don’t drink enough water throughout the day, our body may mistake thirst for hunger and tend to eat more than what our body really need. so staying hydrated is important, especially when you’re trying to lose weight. Butttttttt! Just because drinking water helps in losing weight, DO NOT DRINK MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF WATER, as it may lead to hyponatremia which sodium level in blood is low and can cause confusion, irritability and seizures! Studies also show that drinking water before meals can lessen 75 of calories. Lunch and dinner = 75 +75 = 150 calories a day!

In Singapore I’ve been trying to walk as much as I can. As such taking stairs instead of using lifts. I once read an article saying that 10,000 steps a day actually helps our body to maintain our body weight though =) but I don’t think I walked 10k steps a day o_o that’s why I go jogging! Heh, but I’m such a lazy bum ugh. MUST.GET.MOTIVATED! anyway, do you know that making your bed helps you in burning calories? It burns 11.75 of calories =P so don’t leave your bed to your mom/maid ok! Make it yourself! You can burn caloriessssss, why not? It’s worth it! And rope jumping! By skipping rope for an hour, you can actually lose 701 calories. OH MAI THAT’S A LOT. Luckily I bought skipping rope at daiso yesterday. NGHEHEHEHE. Hula hooping burns 60-80 calories every 10 minutes. If you hula hoop-d for and hour, you’ll lose 360-480 of calories. Plus, it lose to lose the fat belly away. ;)

food. I think I should rot at home and stop hanging out with friends at Singapore. ‘cause there’s so much temptations out there. So many naice foooodssss MMYUMMMMM!!!!!!!! Anyway, breakfast is very important! I usually skip breakfast, but not anymore. I drink nestum and 2 slice of bread in the morning before going school. It helps to stimulate the metabolic rate in your body. Lunch! I usually have mix vege rice ( 2 vege, 1 meat ) and asked for curry as gravy. Now, I’m eating half bowl of rice only! Yes half bowl of rice. And 3 vege instead of 2 vege and 1 meat. Dinner, slightly lesser than lunch and had fruits half an hour after dinner =) PEOPLE! Never have buffet for your dinner! ‘cause you’ll eat A LOT and like your brain, your body needs to rest too. When you’re sleeping, your body stop digesting and all etc so end up there’ll be massive amount of excessive fats in your bodyyyyy. Hence, adipocyte grows AND JENG JENG! You’ll face problem getting rid of it :/

Woah such a long posttt. There’s still some more other tips I think I’ll post it next time. Going jogging nao.

Good luck losing weight peeps!

=)

NYAN NYAN NYAN NYAN

2011-06-22T00:37:00.008+08:00

Mmhmmm, back in Singapore, first day of class todaaaayyy! One of the subject Im taking this term is called molecule cell biology, which is also MCB. HAHA YEAH I KNOW MCB ~~maicibai~~ so cooool right =P I lol-d so hard whenever lecturer says mcb. hehe. Chemistry is so hard o_o it gonna kill my brain cells:( I get NO SHIT what chem lecturer was lecturing today -_- totally lost plus sleeepy *yawns.

Went shopping for room decoS and I spent only 20 dollars to make my rooom prettty/awesome. Haha! Got mirror from ikea which cost only 10 dollars plus its big! and got other decoS from daiso, the 2 dollars shop which i love so much I feel like buying everything! Even the iPhone covers cost 2 dollars only plus the colour very naiceee. And screen protector for 2 dollars AS WELL. WHERE TO FIND? Goddayum. But i dunno about the quality, i shall try it when i visit it next time. prolly soon! 'cause Im desperate for ribbons nao. Need to get them at daiso!

anyway people, go play nyan cat oki! It's so addictive and cuteeee, to the max.

http://www.mochigames.com/game/nyan-cat-fly/ ;)

my current high score is just 6k+. Try to beat me and post your scores at my chatbox?

peee asss, don't spam my chatbox :/

pee pee asssssss, please leave your score/message with your BIG BIG name kay? thanks!

xoxo

2011-06-19T11:47:00.003+08:00

To be honest, I still think about you. I always wonder how you’re doing or if you’re okay. Sometimes, I wonder if you ever think about me but I doubt it. I never really stopped liking you, I only gave up because you did. But just because we don’t talk anymore, doesn’t mean I don’t care anymore.

Every time she laughs, she hopes he is watching. Not so he see’s that she’s happy, but so that maybe, just maybe, he’ll fall for her smile like she fell for his.

2011-06-16T02:20:00.002+08:00

people walk in and walk out of our life for a reason =P

I love my friends like seriously =)
And my family tooo!
My parents are awesome (Y) love them to the max.

good night lovelies! Spent 2 hours editing pictures above.
Haha my new desktop backgroud. Im happy with it =)

2011-06-15T12:31:00.001+08:00

I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend like it's not hurting me.

distance. The scariest part about it is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you.

One word. bittersweet is what I'm feeling nao. Mmhmmm

2011-06-14T18:12:00.005+08:00

When life gives you a thousand reasons to frown,

show life that you have a million reasons to smile =)

2011-06-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

I finally sync all my super duper uber extremely vain photos of yours truly into laptop! after so long, and i overcome the laziness that lies inside me. muahahaha. can finally lend phone to friends without worrying them checking yours truly's hot photos =P

so yeah baybeh, Im back in kuching. people kept telling me that they feel like im still around kuching, never leave kuching before. haish, i do okay peeps. i just come back often. AND, that doesnt make me rich oki =S its the air ticket that made me looks like Im rich ==

hmm wokay, i've been waiting for something awesome something big to happen. I'VE BEEN WAITING =) its worth the wait, says my heart. But Im not sure if its gonna be worth it. hahah. Ah wells, just let it flow and comes naturally, i'll handle it with care no worries ;)

skype. ah, i seriously love =) been skyping with friends from all over the world. Hehe I love you and you love ME! =P oh not to mention whatsapp tooo. but that the only place with good wifi is, at home. which is sad D; anyhow, I love youuu! Ahhh hahaha

bleh Im rotting in kuching. Someone ask me out pleasekthxbai.

2011-06-08T00:56:00.001+08:00

say out the alphabet I ; spell word the word map ; say ness. Say out everything fast and loudly!:P hehe I love you if you tried ;)

Going back home later. Woohoo can't wait to see mummy dearest, daddy dearest, siblings and friends!!

there's loads stuff I wanna do when I get my arse back in Kuching though. First of all! To chop off my fringe. I can't endure it anymore :/ it's so annoying that it kept poking my eyes == plus I kept my fringe until chin length last year and I think I'm seriously unglam without fringe! My face looks older and rounder and all!! So I'm gonna keep my fringe shorrrttt.

Shit I kinda feel asleep whilte typing this lolol. Kthxbyenight I am officially going to bed nao.

....fades

2011-06-05T10:19:00.002+08:00

so confused lately. What do you mean? What do you really want? What's on your mind? You're so good at using words you fooled me into your trap and I've fallen for it cause it doesn't look like a trap. you change your mind, like a girl changes cloth. My shower last longer than what's on your mind. You gave me hope when there's none, and keep me hanging when there is. Sometimes you're as hot as hot coffee ; sometimes you're as cold as frozen ice.

#life, nothing much to fantasize about. Live everyday like it's the last day of your life because tmrw might not be granted.

last paper!!:)

2011-06-03T01:54:00.002+08:00

I look so angelic in the photo above right? Haha ok. So genetics paper is in 7 hours and I haven't done revising. It's my last paper and I dunno why I got problem on focusing on it. Maybe it's because I'm thinking of going back home and shopping and so :P

So I'm now using my phone to blog this post, trying out the new app I discovered :D it's kinda awesome though. It's like I can blog anywhere anytime anyhow I want!! So cooool! Plus can upload photo also. I used safari to post the previous I dunno which-th post, that I don't know how to upload photos into blog post. But with this awesome app I'm using now, I can post blog just like how I'm using my laptop (with the photos). As you can see I include at least one photo in every post! Haha I talk so much crap I don't even understand what I'm talking :/

Ok la. I shall continue my revision nao. Wish me luck people! Xoxo

& it all started like this...

2011-05-31T12:50:00.006+08:00

Credits to Royce for taking this awesomely cute photo of caucasian little boy. Damn cute right?=)

another eight days and I'm gonna be home, again yes I know =P I just love the feeling of going home even if its just a few weeks of not being there. The excitement of seeing the one you love and eating the food you crave for. Hence, nothing beats home =)

Well exams. Papers for last week was fine, and I think I'll ace maths as I'm very confident with maths lol thankstomalaysiaaddmathseducation. Nevertheless, anatomy yesterday was like shit =( I didn't know how to fuck to answer the question AND GODDAMN DRAWING DIAGRAM. For your information, I hated drawing diagrams during secondary school, and always seek help from friends and plead them to help me draw lol. So it was all up to me myself and I yesterday, and i wasted I don't know how long to think how the heck to draw our digestive system. When I read the question, I'm like "Wtf gonna die for sure 'cause I didn't look through the diagrams, I just read through words!" And know what? I'm so smart at spotting question, I told Tammy to learn digestive system's diagram as MAYBE it'll be asked during the exam AND JENG JENG, it's one of the diagram questions. BUT, I so smart that I only told her to learn, but didn't learn it myself. Oh and I'm so mad at myself that I didn't know how to answer the question during the duration given, but the moment when I hand in my papers, THE ANSWER SUDDENLY POPS OUT IN MY MIND WTF. oh wells=( I must work hard for my coming papers. Biology and genetics. Shietz man =( I almost cried in public yesterday 'cause I was told that I might get zero for my genetics assignment due to the plagiarism ~@$%&^&@& WTF MAN. I'm so pissed, yet sad, yet disappointed yet mad at myself for not doing it right! Urgh. #notetoself: mustn't take everything for guaranted next time! So I must really study hard for my genetics paper, 'cause I really really really don't wanna waste my parent's money for sitting the exam again! God bless me, Amen!

Anyhoooo, Chung Wei coming Singapore tomorrow! Yay kuchingites!! Oh and sam's coming over this month end.Yayers? lol. Well choosing Singapore as a place to study isnt that bad afterall. I mean, it's near to hometown ~~can go back anytime i want=P~~ plus there's a lot of good foods here as well! Had Chili crab, white pepper crab, cheese lobster and black pepper prawn last friday, thanks to edric for treating me!=) and it was so awesome! OMG especially chili crab with the bun. onomnomnomnom its the best I tell you! Minus the calories intake and all! I'll jog it off no worries =P oh by the way, I'm so motivated to go jogging recently HAHA I got no idea whai I'm so hardworking lol. Just there's this sudden motivation in me that wants me to go jogging! Damn I feel so proud of myself 'cause I've never been so hardworking ESPECIALLY JOGGING! Woohoo?

Singapore's having mid year sales and there's sales everywhere OMGWTF even topshop also sales ok! like 50% 70% and all. Goddamn! I'm so gonna go shopping this friday after exams with Eveline! Hehe I don't mind if I gotta tighten my belt next month, because I get to shop for naice clothing naice shoes naice bling bling naice stuff! Well you see, this is the reason whai I'm not regretting bout the choice of coming singapore study =P everything is so near and convenient you can use bus/mrt or even walk to a destination and start shopping like mad! Like Singapore has all the worldwide brands, so there's a lot choices of shopping brands here, unlike kuching! BOOO hahahjk. but still kuching is the best! With the best cheap foods and best awesome people there! Just that the shopping mall is too small, and limited. Haish.

I so need to get started with my biology revision OK, shall stop now and continue another time!

take care readers! xoxo

IPhone?

2011-05-22T21:18:00.002+08:00

Using my phone to blog for the first time. Lol okai i know I'm a little bit Sakai about it but oh wells.
I got no idea howta post pictures here. Kinda noob I know I'm still new tonic okay! :(
Hm so one week in Kuching was dope. Spent more time with friends than family. Feel guilty. Sighs. Next trip i should be more wise in arranging my time and must spend time equally Among friends and family!
So finals' tmrw. Kinda kintio though cz I did not study. Studied a bit. But a bit wasn't enough! Dang
Okai I should stop blogging now. I'll continue with a new post tmrw! Or someday when I'm free :)

Kthxbai I love my Kuching friends very much!!!!!:)

2011-05-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

i must stop procrastinating and study for my finals.

UGH I NEED CONCENTRATING PILLS, if there's such pills -_-

Sleeping pills is needed as well.

I can't sleep!

2011-05-18T02:14:00.002+08:00

shades help me to fake a better smile.

it covers my watery tears eye.

sometimes

i really don't know who should i turn to when Im down.

as time pass by,

everyone's getting busier day by day with their own stuff,

and sometimes im worried that i might be disturbing them or something.

i feel like friendship between good friends and i are slowly fading.

maybe its because of the distance between us.

different countries, hard to contact each other as well.

only whatsapp and skype?

not everyone owns iphone/bb/android phone with whatsapp.

while skype? not everyone would online at the same time, especially when im down?

heart ache.

i dont know why either.

i need someone to spit everything to.

but who?

everyone seems to be busy.

someone from kuching, go singapore please?

especially good friends =(

sometimes, i really dont feel like studying in singapore.

sighs. its like everyone's staying in kuching or kl.

damn, why cant people go singapore?

yes yes the currency urgh! damn zzzzzzzzzzzz

finals next week.

got distracted by feelings im having right now.

ugh whai cant life be simple!

2011-05-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

i don't know what i want what i crave what i yearn what i need what i demand what i aim what i should what i could what i would what i cant what i dont.

Life! When it throws lemon at you, use it to enlarge your boob size for girls=P while guys, make lemonade to get your girl's heart=)

kay i was half packing and half typing for this post.

and i literally forgot what i wanna type already so oh wells.

going back kuching tmrw!

don't know why, i got a bad feeling about this. hm

2011-05-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

I'm happy with my current life now. Hehe don't invade my life with your wtf face please thankyou!

watched water for elephant with friends, and had dinner at some restaurant that i've never been before and it was awesome.

well, its actually not bad studying away from hometown actually. you get more freedom, and eventually explore more places and learn to be more independent. and of course, get to know more friends and new people outside the world.

hence, im very grateful with what I got, and i seriously thank God for all the arrangement he made for me =)

its 1am! need to sleep. nights!=)

2011-05-07T22:35:00.002+08:00

People come into our life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Some people come into our life to serve a specific purpose and when that purpose is fulfilled they will depart. Others come into our life to support us during a certain period of our life. After we grow out of this period they no longer are needed so they will eventually leave our life as well. Therefore, there are others who come in for the long haul. Just as the sun rises in the East and sets in the West, people coming and going is a natural rhythm of life and being too cautious with our heart. Well life is pretty quite fragile so no matter what kinda of people that enters our life, we should appreciate them As well (: hence it takes a lifetime to find the one you can truly trust and truly love.
My heart was broken into pieces once, and that's why I find it hard to accept the love you're trying to show for me. I got this phobia of accepting love I dont know why either. I hope we're still friends?(: I don't even know if you're gonna read this or not so never mind! I've been trying to hint you few times but you don't seem to get it so I might as well do it the cruel way since you don't it the kind way. I'm so sorry. I know you're gonna be uber sad now, I know how you feel. Prolly like how I felt years back. Time gonna heal the wound I left in your heart, I can guarantee that. :) I know it would be impossible for you be friend with me at the moment, but I hope in the future our friendship will be as true as gold in the future after the wound healed. Well, as said. There's tones of fishes out there!!!:) I'm only an ordinary one. I bet someone like you will meet someone awesome in te future.

Cheers! Blog is where I rant everything I feel like ranting. It's like a diary of mine , so if you don't like it, you can always leave (:

college =)

2011-05-06T01:08:00.003+08:00

Well school been fine =) getting along with almost everyone in class and I'm seriously in love with my current class now although at class i didnt like it. :/

eveline is one of my very crazy friend she even used my phone to post stuff at facebook and twitter. edric and eveline trying to change me from being so singlish as they say that my english is so fucking singlish SIEN and i get penalized whenever i use the word la le lo one what meh aiya haiyo and so the list goes on and i bet it would take me ages if i list it out :S

anyhow, just did my bio lab sheet and skyped with kelvin and cornelius. man, these guys are crazy as well ==

kay imma go to bed. need to sleep as there's class later. yes later its 1.48am already :S

enjoy the photos =)

winni and I

eveline and I

edric eveline winni and I

edric and I

again, eveline!

k la i lazy to put captions also. go figure all of them out. fb them. stalk me on facebook and you might know who they are.

kthxbai=)

myself and I?:)

2011-04-30T00:17:00.005+08:00

Hello! This week was dope=) Went to orchard after class ends almost everyday to keep my ang mo relatives company. Well, to be exact, is to keep the ang mo cousins company la :P we played loadsa of violent/crazy/stupid games. quality time we spent together. I actually laughed at the video I took of the games we played. especially the one where we used few apples as our ball to kick, hit, high kick low kick etc. it was fun!=) and flicking each other's fist. omgwtflol my fist hurts as olly, josh and chu flick super hard one lo! Like seriously :/ and got flicked i dunno how many times 'cause Im so dumb i keep losing == shiet. anyway, my week was awesome with cousins =) oh how close we are though we're so so far apart and only meet once a year! my cousins' so fucking damn awesome i bet some part inside you is jealous of me :p haha lolwtfjk :)

Anyway, Royce told me that I look different from my photos!:( He said me inside photos look like some very chio cha bo, while in real life *shakes head* ok ok la not bad la *self comfort* hahaha. Royce invade my phone almost everyday so he practically saw ALL my vain photos in my phone. Lol that's no wonder whai =(
Kay, I shall blind you with some of my vain photos as I love me, myself and I a lot. teehee

#3 Kay this is really kinda insane la. 'cause i got bored with 2x2 so i tired 3x3 and it took me quite long to think of different expression without repeating any of it. but kinda fail la. You'll know why just by looking at it. haha

Oooh, before I forget. I wanna say that I'm really proud as a Malaysian that we learnt Additional Maths. I find additional maths very useful in my homework especially the last chapter about graph. Woo. I find it very easy while others think that its hard idunnowhy. maybe its because i learnt it before. Im an A- add maths student kay. Not that bad! From E to A- which is pretty amusing I almost burst into tears when I knew I got A- for add maths. Hahah.

Two more weeks til Im going back home again! I told Calvin about it, and he's like "Wtf your dad photostate money one is it? Why keep going back?!" Lol, no my dad don't photostate money and I LAIKE GOING BACK HOME. I feel relived whenever I get my arse back home. I may have many houses to live in, but Kuching, is forever where my home is =) My childhood, my hometown. Where the making of memories begun and where all my loved ones are.

Watched Thor today and Chris Hemsworth totally killed me when he's half naked! WOOO he got nice abs! shit I want a boyfriend like that with nice abs can? pretty please? or just maybe a boyfriendd with half of Chris Hemsworth's body? pretty pretty please with cherry on top? or maybe sprinkles on top? or maybe maybe, chocolate/strawberry syrup? :)

Okay la, I need to get my chemistry assignment done 'cause the due date is on tuesday and Im going out on Monday. Im sure on saturday and sunday I don't wanna stress about assignment! So I'll get it done now though its already saturday but i don't fucking care 'cause its just pass midnight? Lololol talking so much crap.

kthxbai.

oh wait, another pict to blind you all!:P

BYE:)

2011-04-25T20:50:00.004+08:00

I missed Bali trip with cousins and family =( Everyone told me that Bali was awesome. Yes yes I know I know its awesome lah! Don't stab my heart okay? My heart aches for not going Bali please =(

Anyway, my weekends was astonishing with love ones =)

Met everyone at Sentosa on Thursday and had chinese food that night. Camwhored with cousin but I'm such a lazy ass so I'll just keep it in my computer :P
Went Universal Studio on friday! Woohoo Good Friday was so fricking awesome!=) but too bad we didn't get the express ticket so we hafta wait so effing long! Like maybe an hour per ride? Wtf waste of time man. Didn't get to play everything =( But at least played the thriller rides like cylon. DAMN NICE =) FEELING SO FLY LIKE A G6 :P

Saturday went shopping at suntec city and bugis. Bought a lot of stuff omgwtf and got new casing for my phone =) I wanna get the angry bird casing too! I feel like to lah, not sure if I should :S Watched a show at sentosa I forgot what its called, but it's meaningful and kinda interesting as well. There's no ending in life. And what matters isn't the places we go, but is the journey we're taking. Haha. Anyhow,celebrated Oliver's birthday at some Italian restaurant. 17 peoples ate 10 pans of pizzas, and 4 plates of linguine.
Sunday is when most of the relatives go back to where they came from. Kinda sad though. I miss kuching =( I feel like going back with mommy and daddy like seriously. I miss home damn much. I miss my bed! =( Anyway, had dinner at tanglin club. woo, super high class man. cousin and I like so scared that we'll do something wrong and sia soi my ang mo uncle! hahaha. We used to talk loudly like no one's hearing, but ystday night! We so damn polite sia. Talk damn soft like ant :p

I know, my post is so fucking boring without any photos. Im lazy okay =( And there's physics test tmrw.

kthxbai i should go study now =)

2011-04-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

my two days in kuching was superly duper awesome =)
spent quality time with family and friends. did crazy stuff like shouting at police AHAHA damn fun =) and tried to ditch people using radio's noise and self-made noise. ;)
Nothing like home actually. home is always the best place to be =)

singapore is awesome as well. had dinner with friends for two days straight already. haha i dont feel lonely during dinner time anymore YAY =)
I love my singapore friends :P They so awesome la haha we gossip together even dislike the same person together without telling each other. Telepathy! =))

I'm loving my school life =))

2011-04-06T19:16:00.000+08:00

I wonder how would life be without camera! =)

Its been so long since I used my baby =( Damn Im pretty sure it misses me.
Going back kuching soon =)) Gonna take loadsa photos with friends as I don't know when's gonna be the next time that I'll see them! Everyone's walking their own path now. WhatsApp keep us in contact =D oh and fb too!

kthxbai i need to do my maths revision now

talking crap=)

2011-04-03T01:12:00.004+08:00

see what coursework had done to me =(
it made my mood swings three hundred and sixty degree daily.

damn i seriously hate writing the fucking essay that's so fucking hard that will be getting plagiarized if there's a little source from the net! damn and there's bio test on wednesday! And maths on friday! SHIT. bio so damn hard ok! the names scientific names of the animals damn hard can! =( what phylum cnidaria, what phylum chordata, what phylum mollusca and etc! wtf so many can. how to memorize wor?! tamade =( and maths, OH BIG BIG SIGHS. i used to love maths a lot 'cause I love numbers! but now, its just giving me more headache. Damn hard please! I realized maths standard in malaysia is serisouly low. sighs =( #1 reason of why Im not proud being a Malaysian. :S

anyway, I surely do hope that sam and ryan's coming singapore! At least got companion for dinner or something. Sometimes I feel lonely you know. during dinner. Like no idea what to have for dinner, and feeling sad that I have to eat dinner all by myself == sad huh? Oh wells! Praying for more friends to come singapore study! Seriously do hope so =)

Life in school's starting to be fun minus the coursework and assignments and presentation and exams =) Friends here so awesome, as awesome as my friends in kuching =) they made me miss kuching less day by day! haha good companion to laugh together. Laughed til stomach ache man. Its been so long since I laughed so hard my tummy hurt. Hahaha.

Been eating like a pig though. Cz the place Im staying is like so fucking near mcdonald and i get mcflurry almost everyday! Cz its like 2 dollars only! So fucken cheap please? And its so nice yum ignore the calories intake i dont care whatever! :S plan to lose weight : FAIL. Fail badly to be exact!

I think I've gotten crazy :S my bio essay is just halfway done, and i need to complete my maths and physics homework too! And not to mention studying chem and maths too.

kay too much crap. should really stop now. kthxbai!

feeling so high

2011-03-24T00:12:00.003+08:00

FINALLY DONE WITH ONE OF MY ESSAYS.
Hahah! Im so happy now though there's still a hill of coursework waiting for me! DAMN I DONT CARE LIAW LA =(

Tmrw first class in lab!! Im excited =) Biology and chemistry.
I can't wait for chemistry!! =))

spm result was fine! stop asking me people =)

Adipose tissue?=)

2011-03-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

i love my readers!!=) haha kay im so random i think im kinda stressed ==

i got tonnes lots of coursework waiting for me to get them done!!
wth, anatomy essay this friday, genetics essay on monday!! The heck! I haven't even start researching for my genetics =( Anatomy is halfway done! Im trying my best to finish it as soon as possible! But its seriously damn hard Im gonna die zzz
adipose tissue oh adipose tissue. its found in my body. alot of them! Can they stop growing in size?=( I prefer it to be destroyed rather than it shrinking. by losing weight, we must exercise =) Not stop eating. 'cause there will be scarce in nutrients thats why it shrinks and we lose weight. but we will be gaining weight easily after eating. damn adipose tissue! Y U SO HARD TO GET RID??!!?
kay i shall stop about adipose tissue and continue my essay about it!

anyway, spm result tmrw and Im really excited == excited as in im worried that it'll be bad == disappointments emotional feelings rushing around my mind. Ugh!

I feel lonely in singapore. A bit =(
I still miss home. A LOT!

greetings from singapore!!=)

2011-03-18T14:43:00.002+08:00

some picts taken the night before I leave =)

i miss kuching!

miss everyone there, and also the foods there!! :(

singapore life's fine. im starting to love biology. its kinda fun. especially anatomy class. hehe.

made some new friends, theyre super friendly and super kind =)

going library near aunt's condo to find information soon.

one thing I love about singapore is the transportation.

no worries about not having car to go here and there.

=)

though I miss Kuching life, but I'm not regretting the decision I made about leaving kuching for studies :)

ciaos!

BKHS =(

2011-03-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

Life been super awesome with aweosome kuching people =)

Had lunch with ellen 'em on thursday. And i freaking lose a game to desmond stupidly! OHGOD.

Dinner with danielle 'em on friday at the junk then pullman drink, and mcd mcflurry.

Fun night camwhoring, taking fake candid shots.

Had bfast with kiwi 'em on saturday morning at golden arch, and ung's shop.

then went ung's house to visit her since she wasnt at shop and played stupid games as well :P
then off to hock lee wanting to meet bernard but end up we left when they arrive. Hehe sorry <3

Sunday, gonna have dinner with granparents, and supper with jellispie 'em =)

Monday, morning piano exam =( DAMN IM SO NOT READY DAMN OHGOD WTF==

gonna have lunch with kim 'em, and maybe gonna watch movie in the noon with yhui 'em =)

night gonna have dinner at basaga/sharing planets. Farewell dinner :')

Tuesday morning, bye kuching =((

LIFE

2011-03-10T00:05:00.003+08:00

I feel like time is passing by so fast. In a sudden, I regret for all the decisions I made I don't know why. Perhaps it's because all of the unwillingness of letting go stuff that I should've let go earlier back then, instead of keep holding on. Sometimes, I think I'm just too stubborn.

Gonna start a new life next week, and to be honest, I'm not that excited nor looking forward to it. It's gonna be challenging for sure. And not to mention tough. I don't know if I'm gonna cope well with it, but I sure that I don't wanna disappoint everyone that's holding hopes on me. Grandpa told me "I'm looking forward to attend your graduation." Oh God, that sudden feeling of crying when grandpa told me that. My grandparents are both very awesome grandparents. Though they're already in their mid 80s (i think), but they're still physically young. They can even drive around town! I feel the motivation rushing in my body after grandpa said that to me. I must study hard, and graduate in three and a half year time! Six months foundation and three years degree. I can do this, I must!

Anyway, in Singapore, I hope to lose weight. Lol! I kinda dislike being called fat (though I am, but please == ) Somehow I feel like I can do it, 'cause I'm gonna walk to bus station, and mrt and sometimes even from mrt to school. I don't walk that much in Kuching though. So yeah, We'll all see in few years time. I'm not expecting to lose super much weight like from 100 to 50 la of course. Just maybe, um 5-10 kgs will do? But if God wanna make me lose more weight I don't mind also :P

I'm so gonna miss talking crap to mommy everyday! And going to have ang tau peng/white lady for tea break. So gonna miss arguing with siblings over little stuff that acutally doesnt matter at all, and we're just arguing for fun! Relationship bonding. Haha! I'm gonna miss going out with friends, hanging around talking crap as well. Having gu bak mee for supper, have a drink at somewhere after having dinner at home and stuff. Oh man, not to mention Im gonna miss kuching foods! LAKSA, CURRY RICE, KUEH CHAP, KOLO MEE. Where can I find those tasty + cheap foods at singapore? Lol! Im gonna miss piano lessons as well. Gonna miss the feeling of playing piano, banging it when Im super frustrated!

It looks like Im gonna miss tonnes of stuff in kuching. Aww <3

Thanks!

2011-03-03T22:37:00.003+08:00

Had a wonderful time with yhui, lenny, ung and marshall today. went 5 places altogether just to makan. :P I think I gained tons of weight today due to the food i consumed :(

Had sushi king, and yong su's ice cream, starbucks' beef pie, mr.ho & gu bak mee.

Can you imagine all the calories I consumed? Oh God!!!!!:(

I wanna thank yhui, lenny and ung for the awesome present they gave me.

Thank marshall for being an awesome driver the whole day.

and not to forget, Louis, for attending the sorta counted as farewell dinner.

Unlike ryan/kelvin!being so heartless :/

Anyway, I'm so sorry everyone for the last minute information bout leaving! Haha. I know you guys love me, and gonna miss me for sure.

Ah wells! :P

xoxo

I just wanna tell you,

2011-02-28T01:33:00.005+08:00

There's this friend of mine,

Ups and downs happened between the both of us,

which tore us apart.

I kinda miss hanging around with big groups.

But now, things ain't the same.

Things became awkward whenever you're around.

Well, this friend of mine.

I really hope you're reading this now.

I want you to know that I'm sorry.

Though I don't really know what went wrong in between, 'cause I'm a little lagging and sometimes I really don't know what I'm trying to say.

To be honest, I'm kinda disappointed when you deleted me at fb, and was over it a few hours later.

Then I realized you, also unfollowed me on twitter, which kinda saddens me a little. (well, maybe not a little. but not too much as well :/ )
I kinda hope that we'll be friends again, and things will go back to normal like old times.

2011-02-23T00:13:00.007+08:00

For the first time ever! My best friend wears dress. I'm so proud of her.

Just look at her. Gorgeous man. *whistles*

Anyway, had driving test today and I passed.

Though stuff didn't go on smoothly at first, but I still got my license at the end of the day:)
And the examiner of mine was really fierce-_- and scolded me all the way long on the road. Like me being too slow, and being too fast. Gosh whats your problem woman!

I'm thinking like WTF STFU bitch. But I'm a civilized, well educated lady, so I'll just accept your comment and Bring it on bitch! I dont care!

Long story short, Lenny and I went spring after driving test. Hence, yhui and ung met us at sushi king and We ate A LOT AT SUSHI KING. omg for goodness sake. I've never eaten so much sushi in my entire life man. But it was fun staying at sushi king for three bloody hours talking crap. I think I really talk too much today :/

After sushi king we were super bored, and went gasoline again talking crap non-stop. Well i guess it's girls' nature to talk crap eventhough they've no idea what they're talking bout. It's just in the blood and how girls cling along with each other and became best friends :b

We went padini and I saw this super naice dress. I want it:( rm84.90 for goodness sake I'm broke 'cause I literally spent most of my money on food. dang.

After padini went to meet ellen mond melvin and isaiah and watched the rite. gosh. damn scary la that movie. and isaiah scares me all the time! He like suddenly sat beside me out of nowhere to scare me and stuff. gosh -_- went mcd, and home! tired.

Last but not least, Im so inspired to take a pict with the plush toy ung gave me.

Haha. My twin :b

night!

2011-02-16T10:22:00.005+08:00

Hi, meet my best friend.
She's made out of pure awesomeness:)
She can't be bought nor sold.

Be jealous.
I know you are.
:)

Friends.

2011-02-13T21:03:00.003+08:00

Danielle told me that there's three types of friends we all need in our life.

Friends that you seek advices from, friends that you stick with them along and friends that you party together. :)

Basically, I think I have all three types of friends in my life.

Friends that I usually seek advices from are Danielle, Yew Hui, Jellispie and I think that's so I have. I'm happy enough to have them as friends that I can talk to no matter what:)

While friends that I stick along with and party with are both very different peoples from different planet that doesn't go along well when they meet each other. Kinda. But they're so focking awesome as well.

A very short post here!
Focking tired :(

Hoppy bunny year!

2011-02-07T02:43:00.008+08:00

It's been a while since I updated me blog here.

I procrastinate too much that's why. :)

So, hello blog peeps.

How's your lunar new year?

Mine was awesome. :)
Celebrated with family and friends.

Visited loadsa friend's house, but it's kinda sad that I did not took much photo (though i brought my camera around everywhere, hanging it on my neck) 'cause it's kinda awkward to do so :/

I think this post is gonna be a legend of my blog as it is the first time I'm posting up numerous photos, and waited for it to be uploaded patiently without ranting about how slow it is. Facebook is much slower though. It takes almost an hour to upload 10 photos. I'm like WTH.

I won't be typing much anymore. As said, picture speaks a thousand word. Caption below picture peepos :)

#1 At some restaurant around 3rd mile, new years' eve dinner.

#2 They became vain, so I'm the victim being their photographer D:

#3 kinda a group pict of us.

#4 I love this shot the most :)

#5 I was shocked to see her there! My best friend :b

#6 They're feeling so high like a g6

#7 first day of lunar year, leonard's house.

#8 I realized how time flies. It's been 12 years since we know each other!:)
Memories during primary. Priceless. :)

#9 Kim's house next!

#10 then Sam's house. Gamble gamble ;)

#11 Random girl I saw at spring the other day :b

Loving my hair colour here. ;) But some comment that it looks like ah lian :o some saying that it doesn't look like i dyed my hair. Sad!!

#12 Second day of cny!:) Did not join classmate visiting 'cause need to help out at home.

But met them at spring, gasoline. Quality time we spent :b

I kinda humiliate myself in the public la. Yer :S

#13 Pullman poolside lounge :) Awesome.

#14 Guys at pullman:)

#17 Third day of cny!

#18 We all look so happy, me laikey.

#19 Nielle's house!:)

#20 Nielle and I. :)

#21 Glenda and I. We've known each other for twelve years as well!:)

#22 Miss Tchee's house :)

#23 Bao joo, aud, ms tchee and I :)

#24 Fourth day! Ryan, Corn, Kelvin and Jp came my house gamble bit by bit, then we went lenny, ryan, & melvin's house :)

Watched two movies straight with cousins and supper.

Super tired. Energy level is like zero already. Lol.

#25 Lenny's house!:) To be honest, I kinda sorta miss they all.

#26 Spring!

#27 Hehe I laike this i dunno why :)

#28 Love this even more! ;) Outside hall 3.

So overall, my lunar new year was awesome as you can see.

Its kinda like a gathering for me with friends as we're all going separate ways and don't keep in touch often.

I still misses school.

Yeap, I'm kinda jealous for those that's studying together in the same college and stuff.

'cause imma be a loner at singapore all alone!
Sadness to the max. ==

Anyway,

thanks for reading. Appreciated!! :b

Happy lunar new year bloggers!:)

iloveawesomepeoples!=)

2011-01-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

I'm a happy girl=)

I'm seriously grateful that everyone's around me, supporting me and gives me hope whenever I'm down.
I don't know how would life be, if all the awesome people around me disappear.

I'm lucky with all the blessings God showered on me.

You. I got you always by my side when i need an ear to rant, or a shoulder to cry.
You stand up for me whenever I'm in trouble.
Sings to me whenever I'm happy/hyper/down.
You're a really great friend!
Extraordinary friend=)

She. She's a really good friend and I really love her.
I tell her all my problems, and yes, only she knows it.
It's hard to find a friend like her, that would only keep secrets to herself.

He. You're weird, dude.
You're so hard to get.
And I seriously don't know what you're trying to say at times. :/
But, you're an awesome friend as well!
You were there to listen bout how sad I am during SPM.
HAHAHAHA

Them. They're awesome!
We talked bout facts together, and shares our satellite information.
Hehehe.
Day out with you guys' really awesome.
You people fill the rainbow colours in my life=)

Haters. On the left yo' =)

I'm thankful.
Thank you, almighty Lord.
For all these awesome people in my life!! =)

Stuff

2011-01-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

Hello bloggers/passerby,
There's some stuff that I don't think I'm using it anymore, so I would like to sell it off.
Both are nerdy eyeglasses I got from Forever 21 last year, and it is still in very good condition as I don't use it often.

For kuching people, free meet up will be given ( According to my time, and venue)
While for people outta kuching, you will have to pay for the postage fee as well:)

#1 Coloured frame. A really retro eyeglasses.
Got it for Rm29.
Selling it off at Rm25 ( nego allowed =] )

#2 Black coloured frame.
Got it at rm25.
Selling it off at Rm20 =]

For those that's interested with it, you leave a message at the chatbox with your email, and I'll tell you the details by emailing you.
Or feel free to email me : anissa_sia@hotmail.com

More stuff to come!
=)

New year's resolution?

2011-01-01T20:44:00.002+08:00

Time moves on pretty fast.
It seems like yesterday that i stepped in 5 science 6.

School gonna start the day after tomorrow, and I'm not going back as I'm officialy not a greenian anymore.
Come to think of it, it's kinda sad though.
I'm so gonna miss the fun classmates and I had in school.
Like arguing over stuff, teasing each other and so.
Of couse, I'm gonna miss my teachers too.

Gonna go Singapore study, and it's gonna be a totally different life and surrounding.
I'm afraid of going Singapore to study actually.
I'm afraid that I might not survive with the kia su people there.
I'm afraid that I'm gonna get left out as none of my friends going there to study, and I'm gonna be a loner :(

But, for a brigther path to my future.
I hafta overcome everything and study hard.
I don't wanna end up getting frustrated bout life, seriously.

I know the title of this post is new year's resolution and I'm talking loadsa crap here.
But, I think its optional doing a list of new year's resolution.
'cause I don't think I'm gonna do everything according to the list. ( because that happens to me every year :D )

Well, its the first day of 2011.
2011 means another 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8,760 hours, 525,600 minutes 3,153,600 seconds to make new memories.

Happy new year guys=)

singapore? :)

2010-12-28T11:17:00.003+08:00

Hello bloggers!
Singapore's always the best place to shop.
Shop til i actually drop, and my purse is officially empty now.

Cotton on is the best place I've ever been.
hahahjk but i seriously bought loadsa stuff from cotton on, and its really cheap and affordable.
Bought stuff for friends too. I hope i didnt miss out anyone?

Had the most unforgetable christmas at singapore:)
Celebrated with family, cousins & aunts, and had christms cake too.
Unwrap our presents together during christmas eve, and its really exciting seeing what people got for christmas. =D

Going out soon.
I'll update more soon! :)

can finally scream MERDEKA!

2010-12-16T00:57:00.003+08:00

so today's the last day of spm for me.
my uni damn nice =b

had fun:)

something wrong with my comp.
URGH

update when im at sing:)

ttfn!

Rock 'n roll:)

2010-12-12T23:56:00.006+08:00

Anissa! You can actually beat me in running competition. Know why?
Coz you can roll faster than me running!

Huh? You going singapore? You sure the plane can depart safely?

Do you know why you're so frictionless?

You better not cry! Otherwise the world gonna be flooded with your oils!

The earth stop turning 'cause you're too heavy.

You should stop eating, and gives it to skinny peoples

Yours is batu lintang bump, theirs is the pebbles above spring's bump

Hello hello, yes i miss school.
:)

pre-spm merdeka! ;)

2010-12-09T15:39:00.002+08:00

I kinda miss SPM now :(
i got nothing to do a home.
Usually its studying for spm and yeah.
But now, i seriously dunno what to do. =.=
There's nothing to stdy bout est and i dont hafta study for spm aready as SPM is already over.
Omg damn fast lah.
Speaking bout spm, I seriously believe that studying hard/smart makes a difference. :3
Especially my bio. OMG ~!#$%^&*()_+ DAMN HYPER AFTER I MARKED MY PAPER ONE.
Screaming of joy man. I never really pass my bio fyi.
But for spm, i slept only approx 2-3 hours just for studying bio? x(
But its worth it anyway. ;)

Last night had dinner at carvery and woah, im so full.
And i feel like puking whenever it comes to meat now.
Yuck, disgusting la :3
Im gonna be a vegetarian now. Half vegetarian :)
Afterrr thatttt, jellispie drove us to spring and we watched Haunted Changi.
Its wasnt that scary, but Xiao Juan is! Omg -.-
Everyone's scared of her. Lol!

Anywayyy, going sing next weeeeeeeek.
I cant wait!!:)))

3 down!

2010-11-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

hello mates.

spm papers so far so good. yeah so far so good.
there's add maths and physics and moral and and, maths.
bleh. I'm kinda worried but not really motivated to study -.-
*faceplam*

I wanna runaway, i don't feel like sitting for spm anymore.
I feel like shit, i burst into tears. :(

Bleh, november gonna end and there's december.
When december ends, its 2011.

I dunno how am i gonna face 2011, cz my mind's still with 2010's february moments.
chinese new year. Yes, the best season of the year! Oh, and christmas too!

As everyone knows, goodbyes are sad.
I'm not ready/prepared to say goodbye to 2010 yet.
Someone build a time machine now. this instant. come on! :(

K i'm talking too much crap here zzz

thanks for reading my rants

kthanksbyeeee.

SPM :O

2010-11-14T21:55:00.007+08:00

so spm's in nine day! NINE FREAKING DAYS and im not done studying.
what the heck. :(
Can you spot the designer handbags below my eyes?
It's due to the midnight oil i burnt recently.
And yes, i'm getting pimples too. FML much. :(
Urgh.

Brought cam to school last week. I cant believe that high school gonna end already.

LIKE ZOMG ~!$%%*^&() WHY SO FAST?? :(
School would never be the same without 5 science 6 peoples man. :)
Though we're te last science class in school.

But, our had more fun, and (no offence) our result is better than some other class.

6 is just a number.

It doesn't mean that we're dumb, that's why we're in science 6.

stop looking down on us man.

Okay, study mood on.

See you probably, during spm/before spm/afer spm?

Wish my loadsa luck!

Confession.

2010-11-05T23:38:00.001+08:00

sorry mum.
iloveyouverymuch.

thanks dad.
iloveyouverymuchtoo.

stay strong.

2010-11-01T17:44:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel so hopeless.

sometimes i envy people having their direction, while me? mind is still blank.

sighs.

first day of nov.

spm 22 days!!!!

kintio.

urgh!

Do you ever get that feeling?

2010-11-01T11:25:00.000+08:00

Where you’re slipping away from that person you really love, whether it’s a crush or a best friend? Where you just want to sit down and cry? When you feel like nothing you ever do is right? When you’re stuck between two choices that can change your life? When you want to say everything was just a dream? When you eat, you feel like you’re too fat? Where you just want to break down because someone said something mean or posted an anon hate message? When you’re scared of failing? Where you’re afraid the person you like, care about, think about, love…

Doesn’t love you back.

oh.oh.oh.

2010-10-30T00:03:00.002+08:00

oh my god.
20+ days to spm.
very scary. not prepared.
i need help!!:(

two more papers!

2010-10-16T12:20:00.003+08:00

class tee. ;)

so mock. i know i didn't did well.
because i know the effort i showered during this mock.
seriously screwed my biology papers. FML i burst into tears after bio 3 for not reading the question properly. -_-

well so, two more papers to go.
maths and moral.
and approx 35 days to spm.
im worried.
i'm gonna run as fast as i can to well, finish everything and keep them in my mind.
haha jokes.

my brain doesnt function that way.
i can't study all day long because i either get distracted, or i'll fall asleep.
haha laugh all you want.

that's why, i'm downloading all the trial papers from other state.
i study better when i do exercise.
tends to remember more stuff, and get to know howta answer questions.
better than memorizing everything AND forget bout it few hours after.

i hope i'm gonna do well in spm like seriously.
i wanna get outta hereeee.
but i don't wanna leave my friends in kuching.
and my family. <3
and the foods. yum

wokay. keep reading. :)

I moustache few questions.

2010-10-03T01:45:00.002+08:00

//why can't my brain fuction better and remember stuff i actually studied?
//why is time passing by so fast that i didn't even realise that it's 53 more days to spm?
//why is biolody so damn fricking hard?!

gonna sleeeep now.
eyebags' getting heavier day by day.

2010-09-24T17:58:00.004+08:00

biology is such a pain. :3
BUT, imma vomit out biology out of my mouth someday!
watch me. :)

2010-09-17T23:15:00.005+08:00

Let me guess, you're yelling at your parents cause they did something wrong. Embarrassed you? Threw something important of yours away accidently? Grounded you cause you came home late? Took away your cell phone? The thing is your parents never had a life, they've been working their asses off just to give you the life now. And what your gunna call them bitches and tell them to fuck off and shit. Shut your ass up you ignorant little bitch. Without them you wouldn't be here. And the thing is there's a Mother's Day and a Father's Day, so are those the only days you wish to make them smile. They punish you cause you did something wrong, but when you get all pissed off, it's for your friends or your boyfriend or girlfriend right? This is family retard, this is blood. Who the fuck are your friends to your family. This only applies to some people. But before you go calling your parents a bitch. Let's see how you'll handle things when you're older.

im so sorry mum and dad. especially mum. 'cause daddy's at miri working, so mum gotta take care of siblings and I. and lemme tell you. it ain't easy. mum wakes up at 6.15am to get sis and I ready for school. Then she'll be heading home, to prepare berakfast and lunch. around 12, she'll be heading to sis' school after then putting off bro at schl and waits for me. sometimes when sis and i having some extra classes at school, she''ll be hanging around town just to let time passes by. tues wed sat, sis having tuition in the noon. mon wed thurs bro and i having tuition in the night. tues wed fri im having tuition/extra class in the noon. i used to have piano classes and stuff before this, but i stopped due to spm. if not, mum would be even more, tiring! :3 so lets sumarise things out, sis having activity on tues wed fri sun. while im having activity on mon tues wed thurs fri. bro mon wed thurs. so you can see that my mum works 24/7 for siblings and I. she's like a supermum. why did she did this? sacrifices for us? because of the love she wanted to poured on us. :")

i get pissed off sometimes when mum did something. i just dont know why the urge of talking bck, screaming, shouting at her. which made her even mad and lecture me again and again and asking me to stfu. then i'll be crying like hell saying that I hate her and stuff. but seriously i dont. :3 deep inside i still love her as i always do. JUST THAT I DONT KNOW HOWTA SHOW IT OUT. im not like sis and bro. having the drama genes in them and can express whatever they want to show that they're as innocent as angel. i seriously cant.

maybe it's because i dont have the drama gene in me. i dont know. i just, dont know how to express my feelings in actions. i express better through words. which mum and dad cant see.

maybe it's because im not trained this way. when i was young, i dont watch astro. i only watches tv1, tv2, tv3 and ntv7. how sad. i dont watch much drama when i was young, 'cause i lived with grandparents and there's limited time of watching tv. and fyi, i dont go online as often as my siblings does now. :S well, im not putting the blame on anyone else. im putting the blame on myself.

i should change. to become a better daugther. :3

last day out before spm.

2010-09-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

so today, went dinner with danielle, russell, kim and keeve at club.
the dinner was boring! D: pffts.

keeve stole balloons form the dinner. the kind of balloons with helium inside that can float around? yeap that one. :)
after dinner kim followed russell's slk to spring. keeve and I followed danielle's avanza. the was okay cz we weren't that kiasu, yet.
reach spring, keeve brought out the balloons and let it go inside spring.
wanted to watch movie actually. but failed. no tickets. D:
so went town's mcd. OH MY OH MY. what a fun ride there! kimak and kimen and whatsoever. it was crazy man. but i like. where can you find such fun in kuching? WITH MY FRIENDS. :D
they're so awesome my popsicle melts! JOKES. :D
so town's mcd was flooded with huana, so we went 3rd mile's instead.
we were already downnnnnnnn. from hyper mood to, sleepy mood. :S

i had mcflurry. yes i know VERY FATTENING. gosh! i feel guilty having mcflurry at such hour of time. feel like puking after having it. zzz im now kinda sorta hate mcflurry dy. gosh. :S

so eyah.
today was a fun day. i had loadsa tonnes of fun.
wrinkles were covered by the laughter i had today. :)

face the book.

2010-09-13T11:09:00.004+08:00

hey so today, i went on facebook. realizing that there's loadsa unknowns in my friend list. so i decided to delete those unknowns. some's like 3k+ plus, and only 10 mutual friends. wth? adding friends as you like? -_- quite sien lah these kind of people. i don't like having unknowns in my friend list, just because they want their number of friends to increase, and they can create another new account. walao eh. you might as well create hundreds of account and lets see if you can handle it or not. -_-

so yeah. i want deleting friends. from around 800 to , um now 579? yeah. i was deleting like mad. >D but,deleting those unknowns doesnt mean im haolian k -_- i wasnt even haolian. i just want some piracy and, yeah not tht many friends -.-

so there's this guy. i dont know how the heck he found out tht i deleted him, and he sent me a facebook message. the title of it was "HELLO" and the content was "Hey, why did you delete me?"
so as an educated person, i replied, "Um sorry, i don't want my facebook to be flooded with pepple i dont know. :)" with a smiley face there.
then he replied "We can be friends. You never talked to me on facebook."
So i was like wtf -_- who are you and why am i suppose to talk to you? But, i replied him politely. "Um, sorry. Im inactive with facebook so i don't talk to strangers. :)"
And so he replied "You think you very pretty? Your face like shit. Know why i added you? cz i want my friend list to be full. nt because u pretty. u so haolian. CIBAI"
omg, the last word he typed. so freaking pissed me off.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE. I never say Im pretty nor showing off bout it -.-
and deleting people doesnt mean im haolian k?
eff you stranger.

i didn't reply his message and straight away blocked him in my facebook list.
eff you if you got the chance to read this man.

gosh! so yeah. there goes my awesome morning ruined by that freaking anonymous stranger. :S

so hm, life been okay.
got stuff to update.maybe tonight. :)

2010-09-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

hi.
i realised how life fragile life is.
why is everyone leaving earth?
first, duwayne sako.
due to accident.
second, some dude from my school. alan tan.
was drunk and jumped satok brigde or smth.
third, kuching high's accounts and ict teacher.
some deseases.

now, i dont hope this will happen k?
yasmine, get well soon k! be strong. you can do it. god's always with you.stay strong!please.

2010-09-04T00:12:00.002+08:00

maybeeee i'm a little outdated.
but its ok.

i just watched ps i love you and time traveler's wife.
i cried.
:(

though they cut out loadsa scence from the novel of time traveler's wife,
it's still, sad.
especially when henry..died.

two weeks break! gotta gottta gottttaa studyy very hard.
regret for not asking mum whether can i attend the sri sarjana seminar not.
zzz

just the way you are!

2010-08-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

"coz you amazing, just the way you areeeeee. *wrong pitch*
okay so im addicted to just the way you are by bruno mars.
thank you so much jason introducing it to me and now i cant get it of my mind.

"you . make . me. feel . like im living in a teenage dream.
gosh i love this song too after listening to Mike Thompkins' acapella.
oh my he's good.
and hot too. :3 too hot to handle :p

so life was pretty pathetic. i've been studying very hard recently.
for the sake of my future.
i dont wanna be the one working with low pay in the future.
i dont wanna be the one worring bout financial problems, too.
that's why im studying so so hard now. i hope its not too late? :3
i seriously need more time.
oh my oh my.

day 12 & 13

2010-08-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

well i think both of the person above should be the same one right? haha. well, im a forgiver. i forgive people easily. lol and i forgets easily too. thats why i dont have anyone in mind that caused me a lot of pain nor still holding the grudge of hating them, not wanting to forgive them.

well, why make life hard? forgive and forget like how God forgave and forgets all the sins we made =)

although i do bitch around about certain people, but i dont hate them. hate is a very strong word and if god hate us, he wouldnt scarifies his only son for us right?

so why hold the grudge? =)

day 11

2010-08-20T13:44:00.000+08:00

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

i wish i could talk to my grandparents. my mommy's parents. both of them passed away when im still at a very young age. grandma wish i call po po, died when i was in primary. primary four i think. i remember im having some exam and couldnt sit for the exam as i gotta attend po po's funeral. well,, i was still young back then and wasnt understanding and all. and usually complaint about waking up early during the saturdays/sundays to visit them at 12th mile. now im regretting it. aih. i wish i could talk more to her. and hold her wrinkled palm. my grandpa, which i call gong gong, died when i was form2 or form3 or form1. ahaha i couldnt remember. but i remember it was on my dad's father birthday. 1st of july. and i had piano exam that day as well. so i re-arranged my time so i wouldnt miss gong gong's funeral. my gong gong is a very generous guy. he would lend money or even give money to his friend thats in need. i remember there's once he gave his friend 50 bucks and got scolded by mommy.. hahaha.

well, no one can turn back the clock. appreciate the ones that are still beside you now :)

day 10

2010-08-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

um okayyyyy. someone i don't talk to as much as i'd like to. um, lets see. i got no idea.

hm. okie, so kelvin. my classmate. lol. he's like so goddamn shy in class? he dont talk to girls often. lol but recently he started to talk and so. but sometimes he's pretty quite serious as well -_- AND HE TEASE ME A LOT. aih. what to do imma fat girl. but by teasing, thats how we talk to each other. hahahah thanks to ryan poh siaw farn though. he started with all the teasing and so. school life =P i love my class like seriously.

five science sic is shooo damn awesome! i got ung yhui and lenny as my talking buddy =p we talk non stop. and we're LOUD. almost every teacher knows that. we prolly rocked the hell out of five science six.

i llove you guys =)

Day 9

2010-08-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

someone i wish i could meet. means someone that i've never met before right? oki, i wish i could meet my 2nd aunt. er yi yi is what we all say. my mommy's second sister. i heard she's a really nice person. she usually fork out money to bring mommy and other aunties to have western dinner, as few decades back eating western dinner is very um, grand? lol. my er yi yi would get the money no matter how hard life is for her.

unfortunately, she died in the year 1992. and i was born in the year 1993. she died in an accident. her ribcage shattered into pieces, and um what to you say that term? ummm the pieces of rib cage kinda like poke(?) into her lungs, and thats how she died. she died on the way to hospital. leaving both of my male cousins to their father.

so yeahhhh. i wish i could meet her =) but its gonna be just a dream. ah wells =)

2010-08-17T12:32:00.001+08:00

spm is like so soon and i cant seem to concentrate.
ugh. help! D:

Day 7 & day 8

2010-08-16T13:08:00.000+08:00

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 7, hm i actually kinda like someone but i don't think anyone know who he is. ahaha. he's already taken but i dunno why i still KINDA like him. lulz. well, i'll wait for time to prove that he's gonna be mine someday! HAHAHAHA

day 8, i seriously got no favotire internet friend. lulz. 'cause i dont really go online and make friends =s i only go omegle once in a while, chatting with horny dudes which freaks me out A LOT wth!!!!!!

k, life. been ok i guess. school, yeah as usual. oh wells.

- Jessica Stanley, Eclipse.

2010-08-15T00:53:00.002+08:00

When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were things like astronaut, president, or in my case, a princess.

When we were ten, they asked again. We answered rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist.

But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how about this: who the hell knows? This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, this is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love… a lot. Major in philosophy, cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind and change it again, because nothing’s permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can.

That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be, we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.

I seriously like what she said. Inspired me to have a better life.

Day 6 — A stranger

2010-08-15T00:49:00.001+08:00

Very pleased to have you reading my blog.

Do understand that my blog is like my diary.

I’m pleased to know that i’ve entertained you.

Play nice and i will do the same.

Don’t judge if you haven’t heard the story.

It’s all very simple.

Thus, lemme tell you something.

Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed up. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.

I won't bite so be friendly. :)

Day 5 — Your dreams

2010-08-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

I remember when i was young, I dream of becoming a doctor.
Quite amusing ey?
but as i grow older, i changed my mind.

my dreams.
Is to sit for spm and get flying colours. got scholarship to uk and study pharmacist as mum wanted.
And yeah, I wanted that too so yeah. :)

I wanna have my own career, earn money, and multiplying it.
life with luxury. who doesn't dream of that? :)

So i can buy all the things i like.
Travel around the world, meeting different people.

Last but to least, to earn money for my parents. :)
as they've been spending loadsa money on me and i wanna repay 'em.

:)

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

2010-08-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

This is for extraordinary awesome siblings i owned - Daryl and Athena.

Though we quarelled bout the most little stuff, but deep inside, we still love each other.
Though we tease bout each other often, BUT together, we make memories.

remember the nights when we changed into casual/formal clothes just to camwhore and have fun?
gosh that's fun.

I'm really sorry when I'm demanding at times. When you guys got pretty quite annoyed i guess? But hey, you guys did the same thing as well too ey? :P

love you guys to bits too! :)

Day 3 — Your parents

2010-08-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

Dear Mum and Dad

thanks for giving me life. for i have the chance to live on earth.

without you guys, i don't know what will I be.
I know I'm not the awesome-possum prefect type of daughter like you guys imagined, but I'm trying my best to be one. Though it never succeed.
But, I'll try my best to fulfil whatever you guys wants me to excel in.
Though, my studies sucked. :/

Mum and Dad, you taught me indirectly that inner strength is important. and that i don’t have to follow the crowd just to feel good.

i love you ti bits mum and dad.
you guys are awesome peoples. :3

bye july. :3

2010-08-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

Oh hello August.

Didn't expect to see you so soon.

Day 2 — Your Crush

2010-07-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

omg i seriously dunno who to write this letter to because i dont have a crush. :(
yeah sad. my life is sad. :(
nah i'm just joking. i got friends.
they make my life pretttttttayy, and sexy.

:)

kim celebrated her birthday today.
its was okay.
not bad. :p

til here!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

2010-07-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

I'm so in the blogging mood. Cause i don't feel happy and i feel like typing. -_-
so here's a letter for my best friend.

I got loadsa friends beside me. Everything single one of 'em is special.
Which made them my best friends.
Best friends are like sisters, God forgot to give you. :)
I've chosen to write a letter to Danielle. :))
Nielle, if you somehow read this post, i really wanna say thank you. :)

Dear Danielle,
We've known each other since, um form one pbk? We're in the same class remember! :)
But then you quited pbk the next year so our friendship kinda got neglected by both of us. :/
Until last year. We become friends once more due to some random misunderstanding** ;)
You're always there for me when i need an ear for me to complain.
A shoulder when i wanted to cry out loud.
You're really a good friend.
You even helped me along with some bittersweet-ness at school.
cheer my day up whenever Im down.
we're like sisters. we talked bout almost everything though we have different tastes in guys. :p
i cant imagine how dull my life would be without you.
remember all the camwhoring moments? Oh boy, tht was fun! :)
The other day i looked through all the pict we took together with kim, diandra etc, i almost cried.
tears of joy that is! :)
Seriously you brighten up my day.
Few moments when you open my eyes with stuff i never see/know.
you showed me stuff i didnt realised.
you helped me to tell someone bout stuff i didn't like. ( sing sang song! ;) )

Im so sleepy now. :p
Thanks danielle!:)
I love you as my bestie! very much.
remember that, whenever you need me, I'll be there.
'cause you're always there for me. :)

xoxo

its so hard.

2010-07-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

its so hard to put down stuffs that you've been holding on for a long time.
it's not gonna be the same anymore.
thinking that you've grown older and everything need to be abandon behind.
it's so hard. too hard. especially when its part of your life already.
letting go isn't easy like seriously.
how the heart aches.
how the tears flows.

i seriously can't put everything down now.
it's like, tearing my life apart?
:(

SONY USER :D

2010-07-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

I'm a Sony user and I'm proud to admit it!:)

Life been pretty awful recently.
Sleep approximately five hours? @@ freaking tired at school and tuition -.-
School been, okay. fun? I guess so.
Brought cam to school for some suprise for teachers. :)
I love my class! :D

Five science six '10 seriously rock my life at school man. :)

report card day tmrw. so kintio!!
shall go to bed :

nights!

oh p/s: I'm an ahlian Sony user. ;) ;p ;D